The Perks of Being a Cuban.

Ms Eaton said writing in the little notepad is less intimidating than a giant sheet of paper or a blank computer screen. But now that I have my little book, its so teeny that I need to make every word I write in it count. I cant cross out in it. Its so tiny and clean and pretty. So why would I mess it up with nonesense. I need about 20 more moleskines before I feel safe enoughto mess one up. Ten dollars is a lot. I do look forward to writing in it though. But I'm still scared to mess it up I love it so much.

I was mean today. I didn't mean to be. But I was naturally mean. And that scared me. So I want to try and be nicer cause if it was a natural reflex... that's not good!!! I'll still do it to Muir though. I've been blurting out wwhat could be jokes if said in the proper tone, but the tone always comes out angry and hateful, I'm just bad at hiding my true feelings. But today those really weren't my true feelings and I felt bad. I usualy never think i'm wrong. Well I never admit to it. But I was. Wow. i must be gowing up.. hopefully...